Cristina, on the other hand, expected something very different out of love. She had reluctantly accepted suffering as an inevitable component of deep passion, and was resigned to putting her feelings at risk. If you asked her what it was she was gambling her emotions on to win, she would not have been able to say. She knew what she didn't want, however, and that was exactly what Vicky valued above all else.
Never ever could a movie quote catch my breath like it did yesterday. Almost like it wasn't about Cristina but about me. About a girl who doesn't settle for anything less than butterflies and is willing to put her feelings at risk. Or so it seems. When I've come to think about it, it's only half true. I've accepted the suffering as an inevitable component of deep passion but I'm really not that big of a gambler.
And if I would be a gambler I'm pretty sure I've put my money on all the wrong numbers.
Still afraid, here I am, hesitating to step back on the field to play something that is in fact just a game. And then, there's this saying: Don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game which is totally true and something I should live by. But... Well... in my case, there's a really hot pitcher standing in front of me and I'm debating with myself if I'd go for a home run or a strike out.
